my brother is here!

I'm very happy to say my brother is finally here! He's loaded up on xanax though... which makes him less fun. :-\ I hate that I work and I can't see him half the time he's here but alas, that is what happens when you make the kind of bills I make. I'm not the head of the household but I am the first one to wake and the last one to bed. It really sucks. Everyone's too tired to talk. I've been really trying to quit smoking for obvious reasons. My whole family is cancer-prone and I light up whenever I'm stressed and after I eat. Lately I've noticed I've been smoking more than usual. NOT GOOD turn back run for your life, literally. *sigh* I have to be at work at 7am yuck. At least I don't have to work at the video store tomorrow night I can visit with my brother, watch some movies, eat some good food. I stocked up today on junk food. I've been thinking about going on a diet but everytime I do that I buy junk food. I set myself up for failure. I was thinking about playing my DDR game. I lose weight when I play it, and I'm really good at it. (Dance Dance Revolution) check it out, it's wicked fun, if you can keep a beat. I think some schools use it in gym class and music class. oh my Guitar Hero 3 is out! I want it. I have 2, I beat the easy and medium levels.

I was talking to my dad today about going back to college, and he thinks I should go back full time and not have a job. I think that is crazy talk. I can't imagine not having a job. I have one friend who doesn't have a job b/c she's like a princess... she finds a guy and he buys her things. That's not completely true, but it is! damn it! and she doesn't do anything all day. She reads, I wish I got read all day. However! I would go nuts just reading. I like doing customer service b/c it keeps me on my toes. It keeps me engaged. Is that the right word? Like I feel like I am more apathetic and aware of people in general by working with the public. I don't know plus some people really are great, and I love knowing them even on that basic aquiantence level. I love the people I work with at the video store. Seriously, they are amazing people. It changes a lot though. I'm very work oriented. I think about work a lot b/c I don't have a boyfriend. haha!

I get hit on a lot at the video store. It is really awkward. Mostly they're men twice my age who are married, or living with someone women (to whom they have children with) I am not that girl. Just b/c I'm overweight does not mean I have lower standards. I am not a homewrecker. I do not want to date druggies, straight-edgers who have now substitued holes in their body for the drugs they used to do. Come on grow up and think of the future. All I do is think about the future. I am not thinking of the now unless I'm thinking of how much my life sucks sometimes... but then I always have my five year plan(s). I don't know maybe I'm crazy. I should probably go see someone about that.

Oh, My doctor has just decided he'd rather play music than be a doctor. He's on leave. Weird. He's been my doctor for 23 years! I don't like that kind of change. Mostly I don't like the other doctors at the clinic. Mine is the best.

I bought this game last month, and I need to buy more of them. It's called Tantrix. It's these little thick plastic pieces that have arc's on them different color arc's and you have to use so many to make a circle or loop. It's pretty neat. I love mind teasers. I really think that I have like some form of A.D.D. Sorry if I'm scatter brained. I'm more of a free-flowing writer.