happy halloween

Tonight was our halloween party at the group home. It turned out very nice. I have a lot of cool pictures. Overall I hope everyone had nothing less than a blast. Last night one of our staff finally let the house know that he was leaving the agency. That always sucks. So needless to say the past two days have been filled with outbursts, physical, and verbal aggression. I've been having a tough time with work. I recently tried to bid to another house b/c I feel I am not appreciated by my superior. Also, I got a verbal warning in writing about a couple things that I totally disagree with. There's nothing I can do about it without getting fired. So I really feel trapped. Especially b/c I just got a letter the other day in my mailbox about how I cannot bid to another job until my job is satisfactory. I just cannot believe that they feel that I am unsatisfactory at my job. I do my res habs, I do my paperwork, I go above and beyond everyday b/c I love the people that I work with. People around me get rewarded for things that I've already done. Yes I am bitter, yes I am mad. I told my boss this and he told me I should move on from the warning. I told him I couldn't b/c it is not fair. I'm trying not to be negative but it's really hard when someone you don't know that doesn't know you turns you in for running a yellow light (I was investigated, humiliated over this) The lady that turned me in said I was speeding and ran a yellow light so she followed me to the agency. I wasn't allowed to drive the agency vehicle for a month, and I had to pay for my own defensive driving course... which was a joke b/c you just sit there and talk about your most humiliating/terrifying/stupid moments in driving. *breathe* I'm looking for another job but I really like the people I work with. I'm so torn but I have to do what is best for me. My head's just spinning. I'm not very superstitious but lately I've been doing superstitous things. I believe you create your own destiny but damn what'd I do to deserve this. The gods must be crazy. Moving on, My brother is coming home for the weekend! yay! For halloween I was a Stepford Wife... but really I just dressed up really hoity-toity. I really need to go visit my grandma. I've been thinking about her non-stop. It just sucks working two jobs. 65 clocked in hours is a lot. Can't get overtime or we get written up! I'm really not this angry in person. I have lots of things to be thankful for. November is a month of thankfulness... is thankfulness even a word? I am addicted to Grey's Anatomy and Private Practice. Soon Christmas will be here. I cannot believe it's coming so fast. I'm planning on getting my brother that cool light saber ... from the sith! muhahaha I haven't decided on what I'm buying my sister. I was thinking a DS so she can play cross-the-states games with me. They both cost about the same. My mom... I don't even know where to begin. I'd like to get her another one of those flowers I got her last year, it was pretty cool. ahhh Kara's wedding is in like ... two weeks :-x crazy times people Everyone I know is getting married or having a baby!

I'm blogging here

I haven't blogged in a while. Months to be exact. I used to use Livejournal everyday, then I got a second job. Here's my intro: My name is Marcy. I work with people with developmental disabilities full time 5 days out of the week (but I'm there everyday) and part time at the local video store (and I'm there everyday too.) I really should find a good bar. I call myself an artist but I really haven't painted in a long time except for things I do at the group home like the halloween decorations I made for our party. Once in a while the video store has me use my calligraphy skills on signage. Music is a big passion of mine. I sing everyday and listen to an ecclectic mix of things I hear off of movies, the radio, and my mom's record collection. I love to cook and garden. I'm always playing games (card games, classics, and of course my new DS) I am a dork. I am currently living with my dad due to financial hardships. My dad is cool in a mad scientist kind of way. I visit my mom when I make time. There's always something going on at the farm. My mom has a large veal operation. When I first lived there I was vegetarian for a year! I've been really worried about my brother. He's depressed over a douchebag guy. The "ex" I call him gruesome but his real name is Greyson. He crushed my brother's heart, my brother still has the ring he was going to give him... I wish he would sell it or something. Anyway, gruesome, has been hanging out with my brother a lot the past month and all the sudden is in a relationship with someone else. My brother got his hopes up again. At the same time Greyson did tell him that he wasn't interested in anything more than friends. I just hate to see my brother suffer over this guy. blah! Yesterday my brother called me and we were on the phone for two hours, we weren't really talking, he just didn't want to feel alone. So he got on aim while I watched a movie. My brother just turned 30 this month. I think it's getting to him. I'm 23 and I feel like my bioligical clock is ticking. I want that feeling of a family all the time! I keep telling him about my five year plan. Yes, I have a five year plan... My five year plan for me and my brother (which I know this will not work out like that b/c life is messy and chaotic) but for him to finish his doctorite and move back to the area, find someone amazing who will knock his socks off but still be a decent person (no more bitchy, no heart, namecallers) and for us to hang out more. For me to graduate from college, share a place with a boyfriend or who knows fiance, and have a new five year plan. Oh I forgot my favorite part of the 5 year plan Bert comes over for a huge dinner every sunday. I miss the family gatherings we used to have every sunday at my aunt's house. Well I've been rambling a lot! I should save some for the next time I write. Only two more days til the halloween party! I'm getting excited. I'll take picture of the decour.