happy halloween

Tonight was our halloween party at the group home. It turned out very nice. I have a lot of cool pictures. Overall I hope everyone had nothing less than a blast. Last night one of our staff finally let the house know that he was leaving the agency. That always sucks. So needless to say the past two days have been filled with outbursts, physical, and verbal aggression. I've been having a tough time with work. I recently tried to bid to another house b/c I feel I am not appreciated by my superior. Also, I got a verbal warning in writing about a couple things that I totally disagree with. There's nothing I can do about it without getting fired. So I really feel trapped. Especially b/c I just got a letter the other day in my mailbox about how I cannot bid to another job until my job is satisfactory. I just cannot believe that they feel that I am unsatisfactory at my job. I do my res habs, I do my paperwork, I go above and beyond everyday b/c I love the people that I work with. People around me get rewarded for things that I've already done. Yes I am bitter, yes I am mad. I told my boss this and he told me I should move on from the warning. I told him I couldn't b/c it is not fair. I'm trying not to be negative but it's really hard when someone you don't know that doesn't know you turns you in for running a yellow light (I was investigated, humiliated over this) The lady that turned me in said I was speeding and ran a yellow light so she followed me to the agency. I wasn't allowed to drive the agency vehicle for a month, and I had to pay for my own defensive driving course... which was a joke b/c you just sit there and talk about your most humiliating/terrifying/stupid moments in driving. *breathe* I'm looking for another job but I really like the people I work with. I'm so torn but I have to do what is best for me. My head's just spinning. I'm not very superstitious but lately I've been doing superstitous things. I believe you create your own destiny but damn what'd I do to deserve this. The gods must be crazy. Moving on, My brother is coming home for the weekend! yay! For halloween I was a Stepford Wife... but really I just dressed up really hoity-toity. I really need to go visit my grandma. I've been thinking about her non-stop. It just sucks working two jobs. 65 clocked in hours is a lot. Can't get overtime or we get written up! I'm really not this angry in person. I have lots of things to be thankful for. November is a month of thankfulness... is thankfulness even a word? I am addicted to Grey's Anatomy and Private Practice. Soon Christmas will be here. I cannot believe it's coming so fast. I'm planning on getting my brother that cool light saber ... from the sith! muhahaha I haven't decided on what I'm buying my sister. I was thinking a DS so she can play cross-the-states games with me. They both cost about the same. My mom... I don't even know where to begin. I'd like to get her another one of those flowers I got her last year, it was pretty cool. ahhh Kara's wedding is in like ... two weeks :-x crazy times people Everyone I know is getting married or having a baby!